Tuesday, March 31, 2009


What i wish i was doing right now....... But who can blame me? i am my Master's slut after all. *grin*
i know.....i know....i have been lacking greatly on this blog but i feel as though i am approaching a time when writing will become important again. So many things have happened....Master and i have both had crazy lives lately and that will take its toll on things. But....there are some things that i feel as though i can change. Take a real situation for example- Master asked me to get Him some plastic bags for a trip He was taking. i forgot the bags and instead of apologizing the way that i should have, i made a joke of it and laughed it off. It didn't hit me what i had done until i said not to worry (because He didn't look happy) and His only response was "I'm not worried, this is just the only one thing I asked you to do and you didn't do it" It hit me like a ton of bricks what i had just done....or rather, what i didn't do. my service to Him was not what i was thinking about and i felt horrible when the simple truth sank in. Ever since then, i have been spending my nights doing positions and meditation. i think it is helping....i am focused on my submission a little
more every day and i think i forgot, in a way, how much of that part of my personality completes who i am. i feel as though if i continue on this path of re-self discovery, things within this part of my life can only get better, slowly but surely.


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